I haven't been living, not at all. I have been sleeping, repeating all the things that I've learned I should do. Walking the road that I realize was the best for me but playing the roles I've seen.

That's the way the majority of human beings lives our lives, totally blinded, ignorant about our options. But we don’t realize it, we think we are just ok, that life has to be just like that, and we accept it and keep following the path we think we must. We don’t know any more.

Now I know it hasn't to be like that, that you could grow and change. But you have to do a hard work, you have to look inside yourself and accept the facts of your life, not matter which they are, embrace all your experiences and all your feelings and go through the dark zones of yourself, sounds scary and it really is but also it’s really worth it.

As you walk this road you understand you have to leave behind so many things, so many people, so many places that you love. While some people start growing with you, they try to understand what’s happening with you and support you; there are others you have to leave them because it’s too much for them. For the last ones I still hope we can reach each other in some point of our lives. By the way you leave things, peoples and places, new beautiful things starts to happen in your life, new beautiful people you met and new life experiences you attract to your existence.

This internal journey has given me the opportunity to start living, and to start experiencing life more fully in a step by step process. Now I’m getting in touch with the things that still separate me from having a complete life experience.

I haven’t got to this understanding, to this realization all by myself, meeting the right people to guide me in this internal work is the best thing that happen to me in this life time. Thanks to all the beings that walk with me this path. Thanks Tito.

Whatever you do for getting in touch with your inner self is a step for experiencing life fully. So I began receiving an energy called deeksha* last year. I never think that this event will take me to India, but that’s the way it happened. By September 2007 I was in the oneness process at the Oneness University.

Going to India was a wonderful experience, the country itself is magic. The process at the oneness university is an excellent opportunity for doing reflection about your life, the way you live it and the state of your relationships.

The oneness process at India has contributed to my healing so well, because after becoming conscious with inner work of what stop me in life, I could ask this divine energy to help me in these aspects. During the process I experience healing, liberation, love, joy and of course oneness.

Like many things in life the process has its own contradictions, mostly human. But the opportunity for getting in touch with the divine energy is priceless. Now I continue to receive the blessings from this energy as I serve as a channel for the purpose of promoting higher consciousness. Thank you Amma & Bhagavan.

*The deeksha or oneness blessing is a transmission of energy delivered by two teachers in India Amma & Bhagavan. The purpose of this energy is to help human kind to go through an awakening process for living in a constant state of oneness with the universe.